When I close my eyes, the world that revolves around me is wonderful. But this world vanishes the moment I open my eyes.

I have my world in the dark. I have peace love and respect there. My brighter world, the world I see when I open my eyes is a world of fear to me.

I never go the love I needed. While growing up, I was trouble to my family. I did not share good relations with anyone. The only friend who listened to me was my pet Jack. My pet was the only one that had time enough to stay and love me. When the warmth from its body enveloped me, I forgot the cruel world and wonder about the warmth of parents who had given me birth.

I wonder if I am the only one or whether there are many others like me who are always craving for a little bit of love.

I was not good in studies as I used to spend all my days daydreaming about a life filled with love. While all my friends' parents used to attend the parents-teacher' meetings, my parents failed to attend any such meeting and I used to wait for them to make an appearance, but all my waiting was in vain.

My parent's attitude depressed me, and as such I was slowly attracted to the world of daydreams.

I started making up piles of dreams where my parents loved me, took very good care of me and filled up the empty portion of my heart with their love.

But these dreams never came true. My parents were too money-minded to have any time for me. They know money did not grow on trees and toiled so hard to earn enough that they forgot the child that they had borne.

I often hear them say that they have worked hard and earned money in order that I may have a secure future, but they have forgotten about my present. They care more about the position and profits of the company than they do about my education and health.

I need love. And I know I am deluding myself by escaping into my world of dreams. But even if it is fake, I can find love there.